2016

So its gonna be year since I blogged >_< its officially 2016!! I'm gonna spice things up a little this year :P maybe kick some ass, live life,keep dreaming,keep trying new things and loosen up a little after all I'm gonna be 20 in 11 months time!! that's like a step to adult hood and I'm gonna go into it like a boss ;) after all I have survive life for the past 19 years and I'm kinda thankful for the people who stayed with me and happy to kick those people who screw things up for me over the years.

I've learn a lot of lessons,cried way too much,hurt people a lot,broke hearts,been a jerk and I never in a million years let my pride down for anyone.Things just got worst so now I'm proud to say I'v finally throw all that away and starting fresh,having that much of attitude is not gonna bring me any where but it's gonna take me away from the people I love and care about most in life. I'm not ready to loose all that and go live alone for the rest of my life.

Let's start fresh!!

-UNITAA D/O MAHENDRAN

You ;)

Take a step back. Look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. you are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up or your best friend betrayed you. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to, then let go when it’s time. Don’t hang on to painful memories just because you’re afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren’t worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Stop taking life for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Make something beautiful and then destroy it. Meet new people. Make someone’s day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to its full potential. Just live. Let go of all the horrible things in your life and just live. And one day, when you’re old, look back with no regrets.

Happy Mothers Day

Why mothers have to be around you: Mothers have to be around you because of the developments and lessons you have to learn in life, to go and ask questions that only they know about, to learn the values of everyday needs, to prosper and give joy and caring to you in the most compassionate way, to watch you say your first words, or to sit with you and read a book, to do your homework and ask for help on it, to compliment her on her cooking, nails and hair, to tell her she looks good while getting ready for a night out, to watch you as you take your first steps, to read a bedtime story to you, to leave the hall light on so the scary monsters won't get you through the night, to watch you sleep, and kiss you good night, to get you up in the morning so you can get dress for school, to hold your hand as the two of you walk to the school together, to watch you get on the bus, and to wait for you wave to her as you say goodbye, for you to take one last look at her as you walk to the classroom, to be right there when you come home from school, to greet you at that door, to cherish you in family moments to hold you tight and never let go through a crisis, to discipline you when you done a bad thing, to watch you grow into the person that she said you can be, to wipe away your tears and sing a song to you so the pain goes away, to watch you do your first event to cheer for you when you make a play, to smile for you when you bring home good grades to support you when you make a decision, to give you advice as a teenager, to call you in when it get dark, to watch you blow out your candles on your birthday to sing happy birthday to ya, to tell you to make a wish to watch you open your gifts and smile, on Christmas, to watch you go on your first date, to meet that girl you care so much about, To Love you and Guide you through life to protect you from the faults of life, to give you the value of love through her eyes, To spend every last moment with her as time flies, To simply say Thank you for everything, and to Never stop loving her no matter what. Happy Mother Day to All moms out there

Love you mom...

Still the same ;)

What's wrong with me..?Why am I looking back at the past and trying to fix something when its too late?am I that desperate?I thought I'm way better then this,but I'm wrong about me moving on...I'm still stuck in that time where it all started and ended.One time I totally forgot about everything then one day it all comes back so fresh like it just happen yesterday. I don't know why I wanted to grow up so fast, the lessons got harder and the teachers are a hell of a lot meaner.Lying on the bedroom floor, trying your damn hardest to breathe while at the same time wondering where it all went wrong and how you're gonna get up and act like it's all right, and what the hell am I going to do about that gaping hole in my chest?
Everyone says when you're upset or in tears you should let it all out and so I did it but it never got any better but instead I lost it,till I have no idea why on earth am I crying so much when it happen a long time ago. I never knew I'm that weak and really broken, I always give the stupid advise on what's the past is gone and my so called favourite word ....MOVE ON...Its useless when I'm still lost in the past and the fact I'm still stuck there ;) People close to me thinks that my life is perfect and I got nothing to worry about...want to know a little secret guys??what ever happens to me stays in my room and when I leave my room I leave all my tears hidden in there cause that's the only place I don't have anyone to talk about and me looking in a bad shape.I tried being the person I'm not and I thought it would be better but it was never the right thing at all in the first place. Is it wrong in putting other peoples feelings first before mine?I know its gonna hurt at the end of the day but I feel proud of my self cause someone else is happy and I'm the reason for it...Hmmm I really hate growing up right now,I wish to be a kid as long as I want or when I'm ready to grow up and face everything that's hits me right in the face.My best dreams and worst nightmares have the same people in them and that scares the crap out of me ;)

2014

2014 is finally here and I'm going to make sure no one gets in my way to a year of fun.I'm not going to give a crap about relationships,break up's,tears or back stabbers all I'm going to do is smile and just walk away and enjoy my life...

Things that I got to do in 214

1.Make new friends

2.Enjoy college life

3.Forget about the past

4.Try something new and exciting

5.Don't take No for an answer

6.Be true to my self and feelings

7.Keep loving my self,friends and family

8.Less tears and more Smiles :D

9.Put a smile on someones face

10.Positive thinking XD

*10 things I'm going to do and feel good about my self and screw all the people who leaves scars in my life...people always say that scars heal and I know my is on the process of healing :3 

A little something

So its almost end of the year and its another year of crap ;) I can't complain about it too much since a lot of things that happen to me this year was just really bad.People close to me stabbed me right in the back and all I did was just walk away far as possible so they wont do it again..I know everything that you're trying to do and I don't give a crap about it,worst part is you lost my trust and I'm going to act like I care about you and make you realize what you did to me was the biggest mistake.You're good at putting a good show in front of everyone but guess what I'm not good as you and I'll never be like you,I have a heart and I'll never hurt anyone or back stabbed them like what you did to me ;)
Life is a cold path I walked, I tripped and fell many times on, some hold my hand clamming to help me up just to twist that hand later, some walked on me, others passed by and stare, some just said sorry that happened! You are too beautiful to fall then walked away, others took my fall as an opportunity to stab me in the back, but at the end I always push myself and walk knowing along the path I will trip I will fall and will always walk with my head held up high and a big smile on my face.
Forget about destroying my life cause I just got to know the real you and I'm going to keep my distance from you and let you see that my life is a thousand times better then yours.I may look like a weak freak but I ain't stupid to forget about everything and let it go,keep playing dumb and I'll show you how to be a real jerk ;)

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

Hmmmm

It's weird knowing that one day you're madly in love with this guy then u wake up the next morning like it was just a dream.Have you ever wonder what happen between us??I still think about it till today,I mean when we were dating you never really look for me when you need help or talk to me when you needed someone to talk too...

I was there all those times with you but you put your friends first and me right at the side,I don't care if you are close with you're friends but my arms were always open for you but you push it and close it and act like I was never in the picture,but I still waited and waited for you to talk to me or at least treat me as one of your friend and that never happen in a million years.

Today I was so shock to know that you open up to me about your problems and ask for my advise after a long time ever since the break up..Why are you doing this now?? Don't you think it's a little too late for that now?? You told me that you're upset that your girlfriend left you without a reason and you can't take the pain and it hurts so badly...I use to be in the same place that you're in now ;) but I  decided to move on and let it go for good.

I may not be the best person to look for advise but one thing I can promise you I won't leave a friend helpless and in tears.If you need me you know where to find me and please don't be scared to talk to me ;) I hope you move on and find someone new cause to get a perfect relationship you need to love who you are before you promise to love someone else :)