from your best friend ;)

As I look back on all that's happened.. Growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me..There were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I love you.
The past may be gone forever.. And whatever the future holds, our today's makes the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold.
This is my wish for you:Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirit sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, love to complete your life.

Forget it...

You never wanted them to go, but they took the decision of leaving. You see them walk away, but not able to stop them because they are happy. You cry for nights. Upset for days. Not able to sleep, not able to eat. U still wish for them to come back. You see them happy and enjoying every moment with another person. You start guessing and asking yourself this question, what did I do wrong??? You cry...... more and more every night. Getting torchered seeing the one you love with someone else. You start realizing there is no hope for you two of getting back together. You put yourself back together, get stronger and start living life again. Stepped out of your misery and moved on. They realize you are happy and laughing again. They think you never loved them and they didn't mean nothing to you. But you were always there for them and they were always your #1. They get into fight and breakup. They are all alone again. They want someone to wipe their tears away and heal them. They try to come back to you but they watch you from far and see that you moved on and you are happy. They wonder how stupid they were for leaving you and remember every happy moment you two had. They realize that you are such an amazing person. They come back and apologize for everything they put you threw and ask if you can come back again. You stop and start thinking. You want them back so bad but your dignity refuses the offer. You learned from what they did to you. You say no and move on, because you know it will go over again. They love you and then leave you for another person. You feel way much better and relieved. You are special. You know you are strong. F.Y.I: You know I was there for you every single moment. You weren't there when I really needed you. You preferred someone else when you had the choice of coming back and start a new page. You better not come back to me with a broken heart and ask for my love, because I'm not going to heal you. I learned from you. You don't deserve me. I once loved you and you pushed me away. I'm not a game you can have me and then throw me away. Nope. My dignity comes first. I'm not coming back!!! I moved on.

You

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.

I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you go

And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day

My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love Only You

Me

I'm a lover and a fighter. I get angry easily, but I'm working on it. I sleep and think too much, but I get my s**t done. I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries. I don't let many people in, but once they're in, they're there forever. I'm  not strong and independent and I've been broken and shattered into million of pieces.

The reason I don't let anyone new in my life is I'm scared that they might just leave me there in a dark and cold place,no matter how close you are to me I just cant find a place in my heart for you or anyone new.I may say that I love you and you mean the world to me but its really hard to find a special place to put you cause all the doors in my heart is all close and dark.I may have an awesome family and friends but I have never had a perfect relationship,I always end up being hurt and sacrificing everything I have to make others happy but not even once I take the time to think about my happiness.Even though I'm sacrificing everything there are some people who called me selfish,inconsiderate and the worst is being called a b***h,that hurts so badly to know that there are people who hate me when I have never done anything wrong or hurt their feelings.

I have told my self a million times that god is busy writing my life story with a happy ending and I would close my eyes with a big smile...As days,weeks,months and years pass I give up in believing that I'm going to have a happy ending.I should be the one writing my life story not god cause he is only there to help me and guide me through but not there to write a perfect story cause no one has a perfect life everyone has their up's and downs and just have to be smart to deal with it no matter how bad it turns out to be...To me my problems are big and I'm scared that I might just cry in the dark all alone.The truth is I'm a really week person on the inside but at the outside I'm strong for everyone but not my self.I can stop people from crying but when it comes to me I cant wipe my tears and tell my self that everything is going to be fine.

I want to be the girl who can dust her self,wipe her own tears and say that everything is going to be fine,I'm really dying to do that but I'm just to week to wipe away my tears or open up to some one. I can never be the perfect daughter,sister,best friend or girlfriend I can never be that girl and now I'm right back to where i started; sober and miserable.

-I'm just not your girl and I will never be one ( every word starts with a tear drop )

(Here is the truth you want)

Stay focused and live a healthy life..

I was jogging one day and i noticed a person in front of me, about 1/4 of mile. I could tell he was running a little slower than me and I thought, good, i shall try to catch him. I had about a mile to go my path before i needed to turn off.
So i started running faster and faster. Every block, i was gaining on him just a little bit. After just a few minutes i was only about 100 yards behind him, so i really picked up the pace and push myself. You would have thought i was running in the last leg of London Olympic competition. I was determined to catch him.

Finally, i did it! I caught and passed him by. On the inside i felt so good. "I beat him" of course, he didn't even know we were racing. After i passed him, i realized i had been so
focused on competing against him that i had missed my turn. I had gone nearly six blocks past it. I had to turn around and go all back. Isn't that what happens in life when we focus on competing with co-workers, neighbors, friends, family, trying to outdo them or trying to prove that we are more successful or more important? We spend our time and energy running after them and we miss out on our own paths to our God given destinies. The problem with unhealthy competition is that its a never ending cycle.

There will always be somebody ahead of you, someone with better job, nicer car, more money in the bank, more education, a prettier wife, a more handsome husband, better behaved children, etc. But realize that "You can be the best that you can be, you are not competing with no one." Some people are insecure because they pay too much attention 2 what others are doing, where others are going, wearing & driving. Take what God has given you, the height, weight & personality. Dress well & wear it proudly! You 'll be blessed by it.

Stop it pls...

I don't even know where to start now...I just don't know why there is someone who is trying to destroy my relationship and the worst part is I don't know who the hell is the girl who is trying to destroy my relationship. I'm head over heels crazy about him all the time.Is it so hard for you to revel your true self instead using a fake profile and adding all my friends and messaging me things that I don't even care or want to hear???You want revenge come and do it don't just sit there and get your revenge on me by using a fake profile on facebook..Because of some bi**h I broke up with him just for that and the worst part I was so stupid to listen to her and do that when he did not even do anything wrong.

I know I have hurt him and my self a lot for this problem.I have never fight with him not even once.He is the light of my life,the reason for my laughter and my sweet teddy which I never ever want to let go off.To say I'm lucky to have him all to my self.I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.You make everything so easy for me its like I can just be my self without even thinking of being a different girl.

"I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear.

This is the last time I'm going to tell you this : Pls stop destroying peoples relationship and that is something really mean to do it.If you hate me so much just message or call me and tell the reason I'm not going to get mad at you or kill you for what you have done,I'm over it and I forgive you for everything.Just pls stop doing it and talk to me in a nice way.I really love him and I don't want to hurt him and my self again cause he means the world to me and I can't let you destroy something I loved ans crazy about.



-You've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.