Its Me

She Has Secrets You'll Never Know Or Understand,
She Appears So Strong On The Outside,
But On The Inside Her World Is Spinnin Upside Down.
Shes Smiling And Standing Tall to The Outta World,
Shes Crying And Breaking Down In Her Inner World.


She Appears So Happy to Her Mates,
But Alone, She Shares Her Tears With Her Pillow.
She Knows Not to Get Her Hopes Up,
As They Always Come Crashing Down.
Shes Heard It All Before & Felt It All.
Shes Experienced More Then Her Fair Share.
1 Touch, & She'll Flinch
1 Harsh, Word & She'll Cry
1 Bad Moment, & She'll Break Down


She Trusts No1, Because The People She Has, Hurt Her & Leave Her 2 Pick Up The Pieces
She Believes No1, Because The People She Has, Lie & Betray Her.
So For Now She'll Keep 2 Herself & Pretend Everything Is Fine, When Everything Is Wrong


I Know This Girl, Because This Girl...

Trust??

Its been a really bad week for me,I don't even know where to start or end this once and for all.Is it so hard to have a perfect relationship with someone you love???I have never fight with him or had any argument with him,the problems are caused by the people around us and I just cant help it but to break up with him.I really want to be like my other friends who does not care about the people who hate them dating,I'm not like them and I can never do that,even if the hate or jealous of me I still care what they think and I don't want to make them upset or angry even more.I just want everyone around and him to be happy and accept my relationship.

When I date a guy I want the world to know that he is mine and I love him the most.I don't want to have a secret relationship or scared to tell people cause they might get angry with me or him.I always want to be the girl to be there all the time no matter its bad or good.The most important thing is TRUST in a relationship that is the key to a relationship that is forever.Don't ever believe what ever people say about your boyfriend or girlfriend until you see it with your own eyes.

The reason I break up with my boyfriend its not because I lost his trust,there is something else happen and he don't know about it.He thinks its because of the page his friend made,well guess what it has nothing to do with that.I don't know how to tell or ask you cause I'm just so angry,sad and confused.I just need sometime till I'm ready and not angry with him to ask that question.It kills me not to talk to him for so long,I really miss him and at the same time I'm angry with him.

The worst thing he told me was I used him and that word really killed me inside and crash me into nothing.I can't stop thinking about what he said to me,I have never used anyone in my life not even once but I can tell you the people who used me a lot.The people who used me I just say to my self that they need my help and I do what ever they want and I do it with a open heart.Never in my life anyone told me that not even my family or friends.....I'm not mad at you for saying that I used you,I'm just disappointed that from your eyes and heart it shows that I used you.

You will be the guy who always made me smile and brighten up my day just by talking to me..Any girl who date you is very lucky to have you as a boyfriend...;)




-If you say you can trust someone then you are admitting to something even greater then love. Trust involves all your thoughts and emotions to be given to someone so they can have. Trusting someone is knowing that you can be hurt so bad that none can even know. This is why trust is a word of great power.

another chance??

Should I give you another chance after what happen??I'm just lost now....we broke up a long time and you keep coming back to my life when I have pushed you away and said I hate you so much....you were my first love and everything I did with was the first with you.When ever I see you I just get really mad at you for what has happen between us.You use to be my world and now everything has change you and me.

Yesterday was the worst day I had and you were there with me...I did not even realise that you were there with me when I needed someone badly...You just know how to talk to me and cool me down you are just like my best friend,after talking to her I feel much better and happy.I just cant remove that feeling of hating you,its just hard for me to stop hating you.

Can you at least tell me why are you trying so hard to get back with me when we broke up a long time ago???I cant stop thinking abut it cause it has been a long time since we broke up.I really need you to explain to me why and the reason...

I cant accept you back in my life cause its not easy to forget about everything and start fresh.You have change a lot in a good way...Its not easy to as for a friendship you got to earn it not ask for it.Lets see weather I'm willing put you in my life back as a friend or maybe a best friend.



-There will always be a reason why you meet people. Either you need them to change your life or you're the one that will change theirs

I Wish You Enough

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, "I love you and I wish you enough".

The daughter replied, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom".

They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry.

I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking,"Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever? ".


"Yes, I have," I replied. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?".

"I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,"she said.

"When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?".

She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone".

She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. "When we said, I wish you enough', we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them".

Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory. I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright, I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

She then began to cry and walked away. 

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. 

Take time to live......To all my friends and loved ones, I wish you enough.

Inspired

Courage is about doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared before you do it.

It is your attitude at the beginning of a task that determines success or failure.

Don't wait until people are dead to give them flowers.

Don't let your pride or lack of courage stand in the way of saying you're sorry.

Never stop doing your best just because someone doesn't give you credit.

It doesn't take strength to hold a grudge; it takes strength to let go of one.

I would rather make my name than inherit it.

Measure your days by how the corners of your mouth turn.

The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.

I've been trying to find the word that says what I need to be in life.

"Brave' is the only word. It's the only thing that I ask myself to be.

you should know it..

There are things people should know' everything's changing, no matter how you look at it. The world is evolving from a hardworking livelihood into laziness, disrespectfullness, and arrogance. We lose sight of good-bigheartedness and focus on the mean things of the world. Even here. We've become lazy in our ways, in our thoughts, and if it keeps continuing, imagine what our grand kids will be like? You were taught respect, remember that. You were taught to love,and to be thankful. You have a lot of things to be thankful for, everybody does, even if its just the good weather. You'll find the person you're looking for in time, the one you can't live without. You'll see better days, you just have to wait it out. Kids these days, learn decency, dignity, and respect. So much has gone from the old days, like saving yourself for your husband or wife. How would you like it if you knew that your husband has been "in" every girl in your school, later marrying him, it would make the moment less special, more disgusting. Its become, not about love. It should be. To all the kids, set your focus on that, not on your hormones. Life is a wonderful, beautiful, hard, and sometimes terrible, but mostly amazing, thing. We all have something to be proud of, find what you really truly want and go for it! You people reading this, if you haven't been lazy and read this far, i know you've heard all of what i'm saying more times than you can count. But have you actually listened to them, and took them in. How about the good old saying, "life is short" it REALLY really, truly, is short. There isn't a doubt about it, have you people actually seen that??? Don't forget what you have, for something you "think" you should do. You all know whats right, whats right to act, good things to do. You all know love. Act upon it, live for it, dream, do well, try your hardest, you'll make it work. You'll live happily,you'll get everything you want. Change is inevitable; good or bad? Let you decide that. Love is beautiful, and so is everybody, just find it in yourself. That's what needs to be in the world. I know what you think, "don't tell me what to do." I'm not, i'm telling you what i see, how i think it should be. Agree or Disagree, something needs to happen, or else this world is going further down the crap hole. Its up to us, everybody. Just know that. Have a great day you all, have a great life, I hope you all get exactly what you want out of it'

Just think about it...

Behind all that smiles and laughter its full of tears,pain,sadness and being hurt a lot.I'm good at hiding it from everyone around me,I'm used to being hurt by most people.I maybe the girl who gets everything she wants but something I want the most is really hard to get and it cannot be bought with money or anything else.Is it wrong to ask god for happiness which last for a long time???Peoples happiness are also my happiness,I try really hard to please them and make them happy.

In my life, I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've missed, I've hurt, I've trusted, I've made mistakes, but most of all, I've learned.You are the single most important person in my life. One thing I have come to realize is that love is not always happiness. There are tears, anger confusion, fears, but at the same time there are smiles, laughter, joys, and understanding. All of those things can happen. That's why love is such an emotional thing. You can feel so many different emotions at the same time. That's why it's so overwhelming. But I know one thing ... I would not take back any single thing. Everything that has happened between us happened for some reason.

I hope you are reading this...I'm the kind of girl who will never LISTEN to anyone but her self,I could not care less about what people say to me cause ITS MY LIFE AND ITS MY CHOICE.I have every right to do what ever I want with my life all I need is my family and friends to guide me and then I'm on my own.I don't care how bad your past was but you got to learn how to move on and start a fresh start cause life is one hack of a crazy game that god has created which you got to be smart enough figured out the game and keep playing till the end...through out the game you will go through a lot of pain,sadness,getting hurt,being loved,laughter and most of all is happiness.You have lost 4 people in your life that you loved and cared about,don't you ever thought about making them proud or used all the advise they have given you to make your life better???I could not care less if you hate me but I'm just going to go ahead and tell what you need to know.


-My soul is imprinted with the names and images of those who helped me when life was at it's darkest.

Teenagers

Lacking a direction and purpose in life is usually a younger person or an older persons problem.

Young people go through a period of confusion as part of the process of growing up and finding their place in life. Some young people are lucky and never experience this period of confusion because their life comes together easily. But a short transition period of confusion is typical for most young people.

Then they get involved in their lives and are pretty well precoccupied and content because they’re busy accomplishing their goals and building the life they perceive.

But after a while doubt begins to set in. That’s where you and I are.

We have either accomplished our goals and are questioning their value, or we have failed and are looking for something else.

When we experience confusion and lack of direction as adults it’s doubly painful because we see the world more clearly and have fewer illuisions. We realize our time and options are limited.

It’s a difficult process but we can retask our lives as adults and find meaning and purpose again. We just have to be deliberate in our choices and make the most of our limited resources.

In some respects finding a new direction later in life should be easier exactly because we have fewer options and illusions.

move on

That if I cared about you? Of course I cared about you, you were the person that mattered to me the most. But things change, we changed, I can't keep giving so much knowing that in the end I wil get nothing. I didn't wan't to, I didn't want to stop loving you, I didn't want to stop having feelings for you. I cared about you a lot and I admit it but this love we had went away with every tear you made me cry, with every hurtful word you told me, with the thought you had that I couldn't live without you. Every time it made me feel a little hate towards you. You made me stop feeling. I didn't want this to happen but unfortunately it did. I had so many plans, so many dreams but, what for? For nothing, because it all finished. You told me "there are many other fishs in the sea" so I dont feel guilty about this, because it all ended because of you.I have moved on now its your turn to move on and forget about everything.

The past...

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate -
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips

And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss

I couldn't face a life without your light

But all of that was ripped apart...

when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear.

I think I made it very clear.

You couldn't hate enough to love.

Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend.

Then I could hurt you in the end.

I never claimed to be a saint...

My own was banished long ago

It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones

And spit your pity in my soul

You never needed any help

You sold me out to save yourself

And I won't listen to your shame

You ran away - you're all the same

Angels lie to keep control...

My love was punished long ago

If you still care, don't ever let me know...

-The past is always there...