Happy Mothers Day

Why mothers have to be around you: Mothers have to be around you because of the developments and lessons you have to learn in life, to go and ask questions that only they know about, to learn the values of everyday needs, to prosper and give joy and caring to you in the most compassionate way, to watch you say your first words, or to sit with you and read a book, to do your homework and ask for help on it, to compliment her on her cooking, nails and hair, to tell her she looks good while getting ready for a night out, to watch you as you take your first steps, to read a bedtime story to you, to leave the hall light on so the scary monsters won't get you through the night, to watch you sleep, and kiss you good night, to get you up in the morning so you can get dress for school, to hold your hand as the two of you walk to the school together, to watch you get on the bus, and to wait for you wave to her as you say goodbye, for you to take one last look at her as you walk to the classroom, to be right there when you come home from school, to greet you at that door, to cherish you in family moments to hold you tight and never let go through a crisis, to discipline you when you done a bad thing, to watch you grow into the person that she said you can be, to wipe away your tears and sing a song to you so the pain goes away, to watch you do your first event to cheer for you when you make a play, to smile for you when you bring home good grades to support you when you make a decision, to give you advice as a teenager, to call you in when it get dark, to watch you blow out your candles on your birthday to sing happy birthday to ya, to tell you to make a wish to watch you open your gifts and smile, on Christmas, to watch you go on your first date, to meet that girl you care so much about, To Love you and Guide you through life to protect you from the faults of life, to give you the value of love through her eyes, To spend every last moment with her as time flies, To simply say Thank you for everything, and to Never stop loving her no matter what. Happy Mother Day to All moms out there

Love you mom...

Still the same ;)

What's wrong with me..?Why am I looking back at the past and trying to fix something when its too late?am I that desperate?I thought I'm way better then this,but I'm wrong about me moving on...I'm still stuck in that time where it all started and ended.One time I totally forgot about everything then one day it all comes back so fresh like it just happen yesterday. I don't know why I wanted to grow up so fast, the lessons got harder and the teachers are a hell of a lot meaner.Lying on the bedroom floor, trying your damn hardest to breathe while at the same time wondering where it all went wrong and how you're gonna get up and act like it's all right, and what the hell am I going to do about that gaping hole in my chest?
Everyone says when you're upset or in tears you should let it all out and so I did it but it never got any better but instead I lost it,till I have no idea why on earth am I crying so much when it happen a long time ago. I never knew I'm that weak and really broken, I always give the stupid advise on what's the past is gone and my so called favourite word ....MOVE ON...Its useless when I'm still lost in the past and the fact I'm still stuck there ;) People close to me thinks that my life is perfect and I got nothing to worry about...want to know a little secret guys??what ever happens to me stays in my room and when I leave my room I leave all my tears hidden in there cause that's the only place I don't have anyone to talk about and me looking in a bad shape.I tried being the person I'm not and I thought it would be better but it was never the right thing at all in the first place. Is it wrong in putting other peoples feelings first before mine?I know its gonna hurt at the end of the day but I feel proud of my self cause someone else is happy and I'm the reason for it...Hmmm I really hate growing up right now,I wish to be a kid as long as I want or when I'm ready to grow up and face everything that's hits me right in the face.My best dreams and worst nightmares have the same people in them and that scares the crap out of me ;)

2014

2014 is finally here and I'm going to make sure no one gets in my way to a year of fun.I'm not going to give a crap about relationships,break up's,tears or back stabbers all I'm going to do is smile and just walk away and enjoy my life...

Things that I got to do in 214

1.Make new friends

2.Enjoy college life

3.Forget about the past

4.Try something new and exciting

5.Don't take No for an answer

6.Be true to my self and feelings

7.Keep loving my self,friends and family

8.Less tears and more Smiles :D

9.Put a smile on someones face

10.Positive thinking XD

*10 things I'm going to do and feel good about my self and screw all the people who leaves scars in my life...people always say that scars heal and I know my is on the process of healing :3