Being an option...

Being an option to someone is something stupid and mean to do...First of all being in love with some for so long and you end up finding out that you were an option after being rejected by another girl.Before you date that girl make sure you tell her that you propose to another girl and she said no so I came to you,don't make the second girl look like a fool to her self...

One thing I just don't understand about guys,why the hell do you even bother asking another girl if the first girl has rejected to you???Don't you think that you are not looking for a relationship but just to pass your time when your friends are just to busy to attend to you.I'm sure you can think before you do something.

All that its just for a guy I used to love...I can't take this anymore. I want to be happy, I want this stupid pain to go away. People can be so mean, you know? They make fun of you, they make fun of the things you hate the most about yourself and even tough they know it affects you, they still keep doing it and they don't stop. You start to believe in the things they tell you, you start to look in the mirror and all you see are your imperfections, all you see is a ugly person. You become so insecure that you build a wall around you and you let very few people in. You change because all those mean words made you a different person, they changed you.

This is a nightmare, why can't I look in the mirror without crying? I am tired of all this bulls**t, of all this ghosts that haunt me, of all the mean words I can't forget...just tired of this life. People don't understand how hard it can be when you don't like yourself. I just hope that someday it gets better and the pain disappears. The scars will stay forever, I know that, but I want to be happy and to feel completely okay about myself. I wanna live life and lose the fear I have.... I want to feel beautiful and wanted, who doesn't right? I want to be the person I used to be years ago, not this stupid limited version of what I can truly be. This is my life.

Christmas and love?

Its Christmas eve and my house is upside down and I'm relaxing in my room and packing my clothes to leave to Singapore.I guess this is my last Christmas in Malaysia and I'm going to make this as the best Christmas I had *KeepingMyFingersCross* everything should go well and I want to put everything away and just enjoy it.The tree is going to be up tonight and I can't wait till morning to open up the gifts *BeingAFreakingKid* well everyone is a kid when it comes to Christmas gifts XD.

I can't have something anymore which is him,so I have something to say to you:

hey, Merry Christmas..
my Christmas wish for you is that you'll be happy.. I hope you're happy, i want you to be happy so you can stop minding me.. okay? i'll be fine as i told you when i cried that night cause i knew i was gonna screw up and i was gonna lose you, i know i don't deserve you, and you told me that it wouldn't happen. you told me to forget about it and focus on the happy thoughts today.. but now you've gone away. one night you told me that i didn't know how special i was you told me that you would die for me, i was so confused cause why would a guy like you like someone like me ..so then you showed me that you really cared
told me that you'd always be there and you were there all trough out and I will never forget what ever we had it was something big as in a best gift I had,thanks to you get to feel of being loved for 6 months and 21 days.Hope you have a wonderful Christmas with someone who deserves you.
Remember that you ask me what I mean *I'm sorry...it won't happen again* well,you won't go trough any fights with me anymore cause we won't be seeing or talking to each other for a long time or maybe forever..:)

-Merry Christmas

the hardest..

Its been weeks since I updated my blog..Well I have been busy with my visa in Singapore.I just got home friday (7/12/2012) and I did not get enough sleep through out my trip till today *yawning*.Singapore was really nice cause I did a lot of shopping till my bag was to full.I bought a lot of novel and its all vampire stories and some books about life.Mom did a lot of clothes shopping and the best part was I went out with my sister to orchard road for shopping and it was really fun we had fun go going shopping alone without anyone to tell us what to buy and not to buy...Let's leave all that aside and talk about what really happen there....

Ever since I plan to go back to Canada everything is getting really hard for me and I don't know what to do about it,I just feel like throwing everything and running away somewhere.I got so many things to to tell my boyfriend and I don't know where to start telling him.Problems keep coming and it has no ending to it and I'm freaking tired of all this crap.The worst part my parents are driving me crazy with my studies and they are messing up my relationship again,I don't know how long more I can take it I'm so freaking serious -_-
I freaking get it that you guys like my ex and I cant stop you but one thing you should know that I don't like him anymore and I will never have feelings for him.

I use to love the guy who you people think that is perfect for me but now its different,his no one to me and I'm no one tho him.I was really happy cause I totally forgot that I loved him,now he stays near my house and he is coming to Canada at the same time as me???is this some kind of joke???Every where I go he is there waiting to talk to me and I'm avoiding and showing him faces which I'm so sick of doing it again and again.I really don't have feelings anymore for him its gone for good.

-The hardest part in ending a relationship is not the feeling of letting go, but going through every damn day and having to remember it.

back again???

There I was sitting in starbucks having a cup of coffee and It was so wired to know that I totally forgot about my first love aka first boyfriend.As always I go there on weekends and I was having this wired feeling for the pass few days and I don't know why...well this feeling went off after seeing him that day.I was just sitting there with a cup of coffee and talking to my friend then he walk up to my table and ask me "are you unitaa" I'm like "yeah do I know you??" he was laughing and "its me nick your first love and boyfriend" that moment my memories all just came flashing back to my eyes and I was like "oh you..how are you doing??"

It felt so awkward that moment when we started talking about each other.The memories all lost when I met my new boyfriend,its like I never met my ex before this and that was how it was for me,now when he is back  and I just saw him face to face I just hope it don't get any wired or what so ever...He was just an old book now I have a new book which has no ending to it and that is going to be my last book of my sweet little life :3...

The worst part is he is staying right near my house and its just a few doors away and that is what I'm not really happy about.He came this morning to ask me to go for walking with him so freaking early -__- but lucky my mum thinks I'm still sleeping that time,when I was wide awake P.S its been 3 days I slept or close my eyes,lets leave that aside and get to my point..so,I really need to start avoiding him and ignore him like I have never met him and that is the right thing to do now.I don't want to start anything ever again.

-A relationship is not based on the length of time you spent together, its based on the foundation you built together...

Ex boyfriends??

Listen here I don't want to get back with you after what the hell you said about me and yet I tried to safe our relationship last time,It was the biggest mistake of my life, it was just a waste of time loving you and giving you everything....I'm not some kind of bitch where you can ditch and go,well guess what I can find a guy 100 times better then you for sure,I'm a girl with a good heart and offers anything to people.I have never felt sad for leaving you it was the right thing to do,I never regret a thing at all and it was your lost for leaving me.Don't ever think that I will get back with you in a million years.

Don't talk trash to me okay????I'm just not that girl that you are looking for and I WILL NEVER BE THAT GIRL,go and find someone else to entertain you or be that girl for the day.I look for a guy who loves me just the way I am and don't talk trash to me.Just because I did not accept your proposal yesterday you got mad and try to get revenge on me????damn you really need to get a life,you really want to get your revenge??? FORGET IT AND KEEP DREAMING..!!!

This is for you :
Majority of the guys are douche bags,be it of any age, country or class. They might not show it now and act perfect but will show their colours in the coming time. Almost all  my guy friends or the known ones have done something that could easily screw their relationship for good. The best part is you get to hear amazing concepts about why they did so. well some have also advised me to go for it, funny isn't it. now, i am not big shot relationship adviser but i would give you some tips that i gave my girl friends.

rule no 1. - never ever go for his words, but for actions.
rule no 2. - the first impression is a wrong impression.
rule no 3. - observe & analyse before falling for him.
rule no 4. - If he talk trash he is an asshole
rule no 5. - be his friend first. if your personalities gel up, only then move forward.
I realized a lot when my best friend had to bear some traumatic experiences. Go for a guy who really loves for the person you are. my same friend once quoted ''guys go for looks but girls go for a guys heart''. don't go just go for looks, maybe there is a guy who really cares for you. Give him a chance to impress you, you never know when lightening could strike. what has happened to the sanity of relationships, i see a rise in the number of divorces and increase in infidelity.You guys are running the damn show. Never ever lose hope, if you do ... remember this planet is doomed. RELATIONSHIP IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN SCIENCE OR ECONOMICS.

Finally 16..

Finally I turn 16 on 13 November 2012 and it turn out to be the best birthday for me..I had everyone I love with me.I did not throw a big party or what so ever cause I did not want any of it,I just want it simple and the most important thing is everyone is there for my special day.I had a fight with my mum cause I know that she is planning to have a big party which I don't want,Finally she listen to me and plan what I want for the first time in my birthday history (thank you mum)...The best part about birthday it was on deepavali (Indian celebration) and it was on Tuesday aka the day I was brought to this earth.It was really special for me on that day ^_^

That cake up there is done by my brother who is not really a good beaker but he finally made something which is not burn and it can be eaten,the best part is he did not burn down the kitchen.That cake was given to me in bed,I open my eyes and I saw my family standing in my room with big smiles (that was creepy) on theirs faces I woke up blow all the candles...It was the best morning for me as I was the princess for the day.I thought that it was until there but it was till midnight,there were alot of gifts (I still never open yet)

That was my real birthday cake (from the bakery) and it tasted so good.That was from my parents (thank you guys)..I'm thankful for the family I have and I love you guys with all my heart and there is nothing more I could ask for....They say birthday wishes come true so I made a wish,hope it happens *KeepingFingersCross* if it does come true will say what was my wish.Looks like my 16 birthday turn out to be a day I would never forget in my life.Not a single tear drop from my eyes on this day.

I already move on and I'm ready to start fresh with everything and I'm freaking sure that I totally forgot what we use to have 3 years back.I'm much more happy with my boyfriend now and there is nothing else I want from him but his never ending love for me.

-Being happy doesn't mean you're perfect. It just means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.

A new friend..

There I was sitting in bed at the hospital and I met this guy named jay jay who is fighting his life trough cancer.He is has given up in his life and he thinks he is useless and cant even do a thing by him self but guess what you are wrong about that,you fighting trough cancer is something very big and not everyone can do it you are the only one who can do it and that is up to you if you are willing to fight for your life..I get it that your girlfriend broke up with you because she heard that you are having cancer, leave that aside and think that you have a wonderful family and friends to support you all the way to the top.Its not your lost that your girlfriend left you that is her lost for breaking up with you.As far as I know you have inspired me in a way that sickness is nothing without putting up a fight with your life and that is something very great to me.

I'm happy to know that I manage to put a smile on your face when you did not even want to laugh or smile. Look at the bright side you got a long way to go,so stop thinking about ending your life before god could even take your life.Single or not single just try to enjoy life as it is,don't ever let anyone to put you down or destroy your happiness cause everything is in your hands and its up to you to make it to be the best life.No matter how hard life gets always put your head up and smile and never let a single tear drop to come down your eyes only tears should joy should fill your eyes.

I may be just a new friend you met but look at the bright side I manage to cheer you up with my lame jokes and not so lame story (I guess)....Be happy all the time and stay strong ^_^
I hope you enjoy reading my blog and yeah I finally done blogging about you like you asked me too ;D

-The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.

Truly From,
unitaa (your new friend)

from your best friend ;)

As I look back on all that's happened.. Growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me..There were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I love you.
The past may be gone forever.. And whatever the future holds, our today's makes the memories of tomorrow. So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold.
This is my wish for you:Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirit sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, love to complete your life.

Forget it...

You never wanted them to go, but they took the decision of leaving. You see them walk away, but not able to stop them because they are happy. You cry for nights. Upset for days. Not able to sleep, not able to eat. U still wish for them to come back. You see them happy and enjoying every moment with another person. You start guessing and asking yourself this question, what did I do wrong??? You cry...... more and more every night. Getting torchered seeing the one you love with someone else. You start realizing there is no hope for you two of getting back together. You put yourself back together, get stronger and start living life again. Stepped out of your misery and moved on. They realize you are happy and laughing again. They think you never loved them and they didn't mean nothing to you. But you were always there for them and they were always your #1. They get into fight and breakup. They are all alone again. They want someone to wipe their tears away and heal them. They try to come back to you but they watch you from far and see that you moved on and you are happy. They wonder how stupid they were for leaving you and remember every happy moment you two had. They realize that you are such an amazing person. They come back and apologize for everything they put you threw and ask if you can come back again. You stop and start thinking. You want them back so bad but your dignity refuses the offer. You learned from what they did to you. You say no and move on, because you know it will go over again. They love you and then leave you for another person. You feel way much better and relieved. You are special. You know you are strong. F.Y.I: You know I was there for you every single moment. You weren't there when I really needed you. You preferred someone else when you had the choice of coming back and start a new page. You better not come back to me with a broken heart and ask for my love, because I'm not going to heal you. I learned from you. You don't deserve me. I once loved you and you pushed me away. I'm not a game you can have me and then throw me away. Nope. My dignity comes first. I'm not coming back!!! I moved on.

You

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.

I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you go

And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day

My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love Only You

Me

I'm a lover and a fighter. I get angry easily, but I'm working on it. I sleep and think too much, but I get my s**t done. I have a weakness for sweet talkers, but I'm learning and enforcing my boundaries. I don't let many people in, but once they're in, they're there forever. I'm  not strong and independent and I've been broken and shattered into million of pieces.

The reason I don't let anyone new in my life is I'm scared that they might just leave me there in a dark and cold place,no matter how close you are to me I just cant find a place in my heart for you or anyone new.I may say that I love you and you mean the world to me but its really hard to find a special place to put you cause all the doors in my heart is all close and dark.I may have an awesome family and friends but I have never had a perfect relationship,I always end up being hurt and sacrificing everything I have to make others happy but not even once I take the time to think about my happiness.Even though I'm sacrificing everything there are some people who called me selfish,inconsiderate and the worst is being called a b***h,that hurts so badly to know that there are people who hate me when I have never done anything wrong or hurt their feelings.

I have told my self a million times that god is busy writing my life story with a happy ending and I would close my eyes with a big smile...As days,weeks,months and years pass I give up in believing that I'm going to have a happy ending.I should be the one writing my life story not god cause he is only there to help me and guide me through but not there to write a perfect story cause no one has a perfect life everyone has their up's and downs and just have to be smart to deal with it no matter how bad it turns out to be...To me my problems are big and I'm scared that I might just cry in the dark all alone.The truth is I'm a really week person on the inside but at the outside I'm strong for everyone but not my self.I can stop people from crying but when it comes to me I cant wipe my tears and tell my self that everything is going to be fine.

I want to be the girl who can dust her self,wipe her own tears and say that everything is going to be fine,I'm really dying to do that but I'm just to week to wipe away my tears or open up to some one. I can never be the perfect daughter,sister,best friend or girlfriend I can never be that girl and now I'm right back to where i started; sober and miserable.

-I'm just not your girl and I will never be one ( every word starts with a tear drop )

(Here is the truth you want)

Stay focused and live a healthy life..

I was jogging one day and i noticed a person in front of me, about 1/4 of mile. I could tell he was running a little slower than me and I thought, good, i shall try to catch him. I had about a mile to go my path before i needed to turn off.
So i started running faster and faster. Every block, i was gaining on him just a little bit. After just a few minutes i was only about 100 yards behind him, so i really picked up the pace and push myself. You would have thought i was running in the last leg of London Olympic competition. I was determined to catch him.

Finally, i did it! I caught and passed him by. On the inside i felt so good. "I beat him" of course, he didn't even know we were racing. After i passed him, i realized i had been so
focused on competing against him that i had missed my turn. I had gone nearly six blocks past it. I had to turn around and go all back. Isn't that what happens in life when we focus on competing with co-workers, neighbors, friends, family, trying to outdo them or trying to prove that we are more successful or more important? We spend our time and energy running after them and we miss out on our own paths to our God given destinies. The problem with unhealthy competition is that its a never ending cycle.

There will always be somebody ahead of you, someone with better job, nicer car, more money in the bank, more education, a prettier wife, a more handsome husband, better behaved children, etc. But realize that "You can be the best that you can be, you are not competing with no one." Some people are insecure because they pay too much attention 2 what others are doing, where others are going, wearing & driving. Take what God has given you, the height, weight & personality. Dress well & wear it proudly! You 'll be blessed by it.

Stop it pls...

I don't even know where to start now...I just don't know why there is someone who is trying to destroy my relationship and the worst part is I don't know who the hell is the girl who is trying to destroy my relationship. I'm head over heels crazy about him all the time.Is it so hard for you to revel your true self instead using a fake profile and adding all my friends and messaging me things that I don't even care or want to hear???You want revenge come and do it don't just sit there and get your revenge on me by using a fake profile on facebook..Because of some bi**h I broke up with him just for that and the worst part I was so stupid to listen to her and do that when he did not even do anything wrong.

I know I have hurt him and my self a lot for this problem.I have never fight with him not even once.He is the light of my life,the reason for my laughter and my sweet teddy which I never ever want to let go off.To say I'm lucky to have him all to my self.I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.You make everything so easy for me its like I can just be my self without even thinking of being a different girl.

"I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear.

This is the last time I'm going to tell you this : Pls stop destroying peoples relationship and that is something really mean to do it.If you hate me so much just message or call me and tell the reason I'm not going to get mad at you or kill you for what you have done,I'm over it and I forgive you for everything.Just pls stop doing it and talk to me in a nice way.I really love him and I don't want to hurt him and my self again cause he means the world to me and I can't let you destroy something I loved ans crazy about.



-You've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.

Its Me

She Has Secrets You'll Never Know Or Understand,
She Appears So Strong On The Outside,
But On The Inside Her World Is Spinnin Upside Down.
Shes Smiling And Standing Tall to The Outta World,
Shes Crying And Breaking Down In Her Inner World.


She Appears So Happy to Her Mates,
But Alone, She Shares Her Tears With Her Pillow.
She Knows Not to Get Her Hopes Up,
As They Always Come Crashing Down.
Shes Heard It All Before & Felt It All.
Shes Experienced More Then Her Fair Share.
1 Touch, & She'll Flinch
1 Harsh, Word & She'll Cry
1 Bad Moment, & She'll Break Down


She Trusts No1, Because The People She Has, Hurt Her & Leave Her 2 Pick Up The Pieces
She Believes No1, Because The People She Has, Lie & Betray Her.
So For Now She'll Keep 2 Herself & Pretend Everything Is Fine, When Everything Is Wrong


I Know This Girl, Because This Girl...

Trust??

Its been a really bad week for me,I don't even know where to start or end this once and for all.Is it so hard to have a perfect relationship with someone you love???I have never fight with him or had any argument with him,the problems are caused by the people around us and I just cant help it but to break up with him.I really want to be like my other friends who does not care about the people who hate them dating,I'm not like them and I can never do that,even if the hate or jealous of me I still care what they think and I don't want to make them upset or angry even more.I just want everyone around and him to be happy and accept my relationship.

When I date a guy I want the world to know that he is mine and I love him the most.I don't want to have a secret relationship or scared to tell people cause they might get angry with me or him.I always want to be the girl to be there all the time no matter its bad or good.The most important thing is TRUST in a relationship that is the key to a relationship that is forever.Don't ever believe what ever people say about your boyfriend or girlfriend until you see it with your own eyes.

The reason I break up with my boyfriend its not because I lost his trust,there is something else happen and he don't know about it.He thinks its because of the page his friend made,well guess what it has nothing to do with that.I don't know how to tell or ask you cause I'm just so angry,sad and confused.I just need sometime till I'm ready and not angry with him to ask that question.It kills me not to talk to him for so long,I really miss him and at the same time I'm angry with him.

The worst thing he told me was I used him and that word really killed me inside and crash me into nothing.I can't stop thinking about what he said to me,I have never used anyone in my life not even once but I can tell you the people who used me a lot.The people who used me I just say to my self that they need my help and I do what ever they want and I do it with a open heart.Never in my life anyone told me that not even my family or friends.....I'm not mad at you for saying that I used you,I'm just disappointed that from your eyes and heart it shows that I used you.

You will be the guy who always made me smile and brighten up my day just by talking to me..Any girl who date you is very lucky to have you as a boyfriend...;)




-If you say you can trust someone then you are admitting to something even greater then love. Trust involves all your thoughts and emotions to be given to someone so they can have. Trusting someone is knowing that you can be hurt so bad that none can even know. This is why trust is a word of great power.

another chance??

Should I give you another chance after what happen??I'm just lost now....we broke up a long time and you keep coming back to my life when I have pushed you away and said I hate you so much....you were my first love and everything I did with was the first with you.When ever I see you I just get really mad at you for what has happen between us.You use to be my world and now everything has change you and me.

Yesterday was the worst day I had and you were there with me...I did not even realise that you were there with me when I needed someone badly...You just know how to talk to me and cool me down you are just like my best friend,after talking to her I feel much better and happy.I just cant remove that feeling of hating you,its just hard for me to stop hating you.

Can you at least tell me why are you trying so hard to get back with me when we broke up a long time ago???I cant stop thinking abut it cause it has been a long time since we broke up.I really need you to explain to me why and the reason...

I cant accept you back in my life cause its not easy to forget about everything and start fresh.You have change a lot in a good way...Its not easy to as for a friendship you got to earn it not ask for it.Lets see weather I'm willing put you in my life back as a friend or maybe a best friend.



-There will always be a reason why you meet people. Either you need them to change your life or you're the one that will change theirs

I Wish You Enough

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, "I love you and I wish you enough".

The daughter replied, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom".

They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry.

I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking,"Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever? ".


"Yes, I have," I replied. "Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?".

"I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,"she said.

"When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?".

She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone".

She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. "When we said, I wish you enough', we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them".

Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory. I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright, I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive. I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

She then began to cry and walked away. 

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. 

Take time to live......To all my friends and loved ones, I wish you enough.

Inspired

Courage is about doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared before you do it.

It is your attitude at the beginning of a task that determines success or failure.

Don't wait until people are dead to give them flowers.

Don't let your pride or lack of courage stand in the way of saying you're sorry.

Never stop doing your best just because someone doesn't give you credit.

It doesn't take strength to hold a grudge; it takes strength to let go of one.

I would rather make my name than inherit it.

Measure your days by how the corners of your mouth turn.

The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.

I've been trying to find the word that says what I need to be in life.

"Brave' is the only word. It's the only thing that I ask myself to be.

you should know it..

There are things people should know' everything's changing, no matter how you look at it. The world is evolving from a hardworking livelihood into laziness, disrespectfullness, and arrogance. We lose sight of good-bigheartedness and focus on the mean things of the world. Even here. We've become lazy in our ways, in our thoughts, and if it keeps continuing, imagine what our grand kids will be like? You were taught respect, remember that. You were taught to love,and to be thankful. You have a lot of things to be thankful for, everybody does, even if its just the good weather. You'll find the person you're looking for in time, the one you can't live without. You'll see better days, you just have to wait it out. Kids these days, learn decency, dignity, and respect. So much has gone from the old days, like saving yourself for your husband or wife. How would you like it if you knew that your husband has been "in" every girl in your school, later marrying him, it would make the moment less special, more disgusting. Its become, not about love. It should be. To all the kids, set your focus on that, not on your hormones. Life is a wonderful, beautiful, hard, and sometimes terrible, but mostly amazing, thing. We all have something to be proud of, find what you really truly want and go for it! You people reading this, if you haven't been lazy and read this far, i know you've heard all of what i'm saying more times than you can count. But have you actually listened to them, and took them in. How about the good old saying, "life is short" it REALLY really, truly, is short. There isn't a doubt about it, have you people actually seen that??? Don't forget what you have, for something you "think" you should do. You all know whats right, whats right to act, good things to do. You all know love. Act upon it, live for it, dream, do well, try your hardest, you'll make it work. You'll live happily,you'll get everything you want. Change is inevitable; good or bad? Let you decide that. Love is beautiful, and so is everybody, just find it in yourself. That's what needs to be in the world. I know what you think, "don't tell me what to do." I'm not, i'm telling you what i see, how i think it should be. Agree or Disagree, something needs to happen, or else this world is going further down the crap hole. Its up to us, everybody. Just know that. Have a great day you all, have a great life, I hope you all get exactly what you want out of it'

Just think about it...

Behind all that smiles and laughter its full of tears,pain,sadness and being hurt a lot.I'm good at hiding it from everyone around me,I'm used to being hurt by most people.I maybe the girl who gets everything she wants but something I want the most is really hard to get and it cannot be bought with money or anything else.Is it wrong to ask god for happiness which last for a long time???Peoples happiness are also my happiness,I try really hard to please them and make them happy.

In my life, I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've missed, I've hurt, I've trusted, I've made mistakes, but most of all, I've learned.You are the single most important person in my life. One thing I have come to realize is that love is not always happiness. There are tears, anger confusion, fears, but at the same time there are smiles, laughter, joys, and understanding. All of those things can happen. That's why love is such an emotional thing. You can feel so many different emotions at the same time. That's why it's so overwhelming. But I know one thing ... I would not take back any single thing. Everything that has happened between us happened for some reason.

I hope you are reading this...I'm the kind of girl who will never LISTEN to anyone but her self,I could not care less about what people say to me cause ITS MY LIFE AND ITS MY CHOICE.I have every right to do what ever I want with my life all I need is my family and friends to guide me and then I'm on my own.I don't care how bad your past was but you got to learn how to move on and start a fresh start cause life is one hack of a crazy game that god has created which you got to be smart enough figured out the game and keep playing till the end...through out the game you will go through a lot of pain,sadness,getting hurt,being loved,laughter and most of all is happiness.You have lost 4 people in your life that you loved and cared about,don't you ever thought about making them proud or used all the advise they have given you to make your life better???I could not care less if you hate me but I'm just going to go ahead and tell what you need to know.


-My soul is imprinted with the names and images of those who helped me when life was at it's darkest.

Teenagers

Lacking a direction and purpose in life is usually a younger person or an older persons problem.

Young people go through a period of confusion as part of the process of growing up and finding their place in life. Some young people are lucky and never experience this period of confusion because their life comes together easily. But a short transition period of confusion is typical for most young people.

Then they get involved in their lives and are pretty well precoccupied and content because they’re busy accomplishing their goals and building the life they perceive.

But after a while doubt begins to set in. That’s where you and I are.

We have either accomplished our goals and are questioning their value, or we have failed and are looking for something else.

When we experience confusion and lack of direction as adults it’s doubly painful because we see the world more clearly and have fewer illuisions. We realize our time and options are limited.

It’s a difficult process but we can retask our lives as adults and find meaning and purpose again. We just have to be deliberate in our choices and make the most of our limited resources.

In some respects finding a new direction later in life should be easier exactly because we have fewer options and illusions.

move on

That if I cared about you? Of course I cared about you, you were the person that mattered to me the most. But things change, we changed, I can't keep giving so much knowing that in the end I wil get nothing. I didn't wan't to, I didn't want to stop loving you, I didn't want to stop having feelings for you. I cared about you a lot and I admit it but this love we had went away with every tear you made me cry, with every hurtful word you told me, with the thought you had that I couldn't live without you. Every time it made me feel a little hate towards you. You made me stop feeling. I didn't want this to happen but unfortunately it did. I had so many plans, so many dreams but, what for? For nothing, because it all finished. You told me "there are many other fishs in the sea" so I dont feel guilty about this, because it all ended because of you.I have moved on now its your turn to move on and forget about everything.

The past...

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again...

So if you love me, let me go.
And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care.
I can't destroy what isn't there.
Deliver me into my fate -
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you...
My smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips

And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss

I couldn't face a life without your light

But all of that was ripped apart...

when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear.

I think I made it very clear.

You couldn't hate enough to love.

Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend.

Then I could hurt you in the end.

I never claimed to be a saint...

My own was banished long ago

It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones

And spit your pity in my soul

You never needed any help

You sold me out to save yourself

And I won't listen to your shame

You ran away - you're all the same

Angels lie to keep control...

My love was punished long ago

If you still care, don't ever let me know...

-The past is always there...

All the doors opens

They say when one door closes, another door opens. But there is always a door you try to open, but is locked. The door that you want to stay closed, but always finds a way to open itself up again, no matter how many times you slam it. There’s the trapped door that you fall in and find a new adventure, and the door that you thought you closed a long time ago, but the whole time it was open just a crack. Waiting for you to notice, but you never do. So it stays open, just waiting for you to pass again and decide to place your hand on the handle, and push, revealing the world you left behind. And when you finally do, you realize it everything you needed, everything you wanted, everything that made you happy. You wonder why you left, why you thought you needed more, why you weren’t happy at the time. Then you realize that happiness isn’t a destination, it’s a way of life. And with that realization, all the doors open.

You don't really see it...

You didn't see all the tears I cried. You didn't see how much I tried. So I guess I'll just let you be, even if that means being without me.You get tired of it. You get tired of being the girl the guys use for the self-confidence of the day And you tell them to look somewhere else. Like this cliche but you really do put up a wall to see who cares enough to knock it down. And you want to find someone who is man enough to knock it down so you wait, and you wait, and you cry, and there it is, still standing and there you are broken in pieces. It's like the wall you put up and show the world is fake. You try to smile. You try to be happy. When what's inside the wall is already destroyed. So it's like there's no use for the wall. Everything worth pretending got destroyed before you decided to build it. So now your more vulnerable than ever. And sure guys come along and flirt but all you are to them is someone who they can flirt withand get advice about the girls the really want. But eventually in time, a guy will come along and he will want to be with you always. And when you push him away. He'll come back more determined. When you tell him you don't love him. He'll come back for more, because he knows that your hurt and he knows you have to learn to trust him. He'll be there for you no matter how hard you try to make him leave. It'll never be easy, but it'll be worth it.


-Bryan you have never been on the side lines in my life,you have a special place in my life its just that I don't want to look for you cause I don't you to be worried about me and I want to be there with you on your hard times,I want to be the girl who can brighten up your day and make you feel good about your self.The love that you have for me is something that I will cherish forever.I have lost track of how much of 'I LOVE YOU" you say in a day...when ever I get your text I will be smiling like a crazy girl who is madly in love with her boyfriend...I admire you so much in every little way that you wont know and the love I have for you is ONLY FOR YOU...so don't ever think that you are standing on the side lines you are always special to me.

Leaving soon

I'm just a week away from getting my Visa to study in Canada and live there.I'm freaking out like crazy,scared and sad.I made the choice that I want to leave to Canada for good and now I'm having this wired feelings??The last time I wanted to go and so many things were holding me back from going,first of all my parents,friends,boyfriend and the life I'm having now in Malaysia.

My parents and my brother promise me that life will be good there.When I'm there I get a car,my best friend gets to stay in my house and the best part is school without uniform,that is every teenage girls dream and I'm living that life.Why is it I cant have something that most people get which is LOVE??I got the perfect boyfriend and now I got to leave him and go across the country and I only get to see him during a long school break.

I wish he will be with me when I'm there,but I cant ask for that cause he has to think of his parents and his life,all I do his wait for him to come there or see him during the long holidays.I wish I did not have to choose between you and going to Canada.

While eating just now my parents were asking me weather I'm ready to go to Canada and I was like 'hmmmm I don't know',I guess I'm a little scared.Dad was like if you don't want to go we can just cancelled your visa and you don't have to go,I just sat there and stare at my mum and dad for the past 10min like a lost puppy...I wish I had an answer to my parents questions.

Did I make the right choice by choosing to go to Canada over my boyfriend???Somedays you just can't seem to smile..not even put the usual fake one. All you wanna do is stay in bed and hide under your blanky. You're in tears and the pain is evident on your face. And you just...Don't want anyone to see you like that...not even your reflection.

He is something...

His something that god gave me..for a long time I have been praying to get a guy who understands and loves me,that was the only two things I ask god for and I finally got it.He brings out the best out of me,I feel happy all the time when I hear his voice and the way he laughs that is good enough to brighten up my day.He gave me something to believe in.All I want to do is sleep by his side,hug him all night and kiss him all day,I don't want to be far away from him.

I wanna be remembered as the girl who always smiled,the one who could always brighten your day even if she couldnt brighten her own.I may not be able to handle my life but I can promise you that I will always be there with you all the time no matter how bad things get worst.I don't share with you my problems is because  I don't want you to be worried of me all the time I just want you to be happy with me and have a good and solid relationship with me.I want to bring out the best of you like how you did to me.

I may not be the most beautiful girl like all your ex girlfriends,but all I can offer you is my love and heart for you.You are everything to me,your my teddy bear,my adviser,therapist and most of all my life..he means the world to me and I don't ever want to leave him no matter how much we fight.I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go.

After I fell in love with you, I fell in love with my life.Everytime I say I love you...I'm really trying to say so much more than those three little words.I'm trying to say you mean more to me than anyone else in the world I'm trying to let you know that I adore you and that I cherish every moment we talk.I'm trying to explain that I want you and that I need you and that I get lost in wonderful thoughts every time I think about you.And each time I  say "I love you", I'm trying to remind you that you're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I love you. I find you fun, funny, attractive, talkative yet sometimes quiet, caring, easy to like, annoying, lovable, great, hard to talk to, easy to talk to, too open, too nice, really mean. I think that you’re worth all the awkwardness, the fights, the arguing, you’re worth all the tears, you’re worth all the pain. It doesn’t matter because I think you’re worth it.

Thinking of you keeps me awake, Dreaming of you keeps me asleep, Being with you keeps me alive,but most of all Loving you keeps me happy

-Bryan thank you for putting up with all my problems and fights..even all that you are still here for me by my side saying I LOVE YOU all the time even tough I made you cry.I should not have break up with you because of something small and it was not your fault,I don't know what went into me that made me say like that to you when it was never your fault.Once again I;m truly sorry for everything that has happen.

Thank you for everything and all the support and advise you gave me..most of all I LOVE YOU the most and the last guy I will fall for

I love you Mr.Teddy....<3 <3 <3

Life

Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to
others'. You have no idea what
their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts
of things you cannot control.
Instead invest your energy in
the positive present moment.
3. Don't over do; keep your
limits.
4. Don't take yourself so
seriously; no one else does.
5. Don't waste your precious
energy on gossip.
6. Dream more while you are
awake.
7. Envy is a waste of time. You
already have all you need..

8. Forget issues of the past. Don't
remind your partner of his/her
mistakes of the past. That will
ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time
hating anyone. Don't hate
others.
10. Make peace with your past so
it won't spoil the present.
11. No one is in charge of your
happiness except you.
12. Realize that life is a school
and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the
curriculum that appear and fade
away like algebra class but the
lessons you learn will last a
lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more.
14. You don't have to win every
argument. Agree to disagree.


Community:
15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something
good to others
17. Forgive everyone for
everything
18. Spend time with people over
the age of 70 & under the age of
6
19. Try to make at least three
people smile each day
20. What other people think of
you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of
you when you are sick. Your
family and friends will. Stay in
touch.


Life:
22. Do the right things.
23. However good or bad a
situation is, it will change.
24. No matter how you feel, get
up, dress up and show up.
25. The best is yet to come.
26. Get rid of anything that isn't
useful, beautiful or joyful.
While you practice all of the
above, share this knowledge
with the people you love, people
you school with,
people you play with, people
you work with and people you
live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life,
but also that of those around
you.

thanks...

Do you ever think about that maybe the guy or girl we cant get over is actually our soulmate its just wrong timing or that under different circumstances that you guys would have ended up together? or is it just me that feels that way? I mean its like you know deep down that, that person and you were suppose to last but for some reason it just couldnt. and when you look back at your times you cant help but think that this isn't the way it should have ended between you two. I mean its like you cant hide the fact that you guys had something or have something. Those feeling will never go away so why would that person go away?

Today he told me something and I did not believe him cause I thought he was lying to me but turns out the person I trust the most has talk bad about me to him.I'm happy that he did not believe what ever she said about me to him,he trust me but not her.The moment he told me that she was talking bad about me my tears started coming down like crazy and it could not stop cause she was like a sister to me and I trusted her the most.I could not even cry my heart out cause my whole family was here and I did not want to spoil anyone's mood.I took the car keys and went to the car and site there and cry for o long I did not even know who to look for,then that very moment I got a text from him so I pick up my phone call him and started crying on the phone cause it hurts so much and I needed someone badly.He talked to me and clam me down,I felt like my problems are gone and I feel much better after hearing his voice and advise.

-During moments of ;

Happiness, PRAISE HIM

Sadness, PRAISE HIM

Loneliness, PRAISE

Hurting, PRAISE HIM

Confusion, PRAISE HIM

Anger, PRAISE HIM

Pain, PRAISE HIM\

-Thank you bryan for everything....<3 <3 <3

making the right choice

Today has turn out to be the worst day,my brother set up a date with my ex boyfriend and he did not even tell me that I was going for lunch with him.I thought that it was only going to be me my bro and his girlfriend but turns out that the lunch was for me to give him another chance to makes things works again.

I'm so freaking sick of giving another chance to people who cant even make the second one right.Jut give me a fucking reason why the hell you want to get back???I don't ask for much all I ask you to do is leave me alone,3 years has past and I have moved on from everything.It hurts but I took a step forward and made some changes in myself and I feel good about it.I wasted every tear drop on people who don't care about me anymore.

I ALWAYS put peoples happiness first then mine will be the last thing to do,what I do for my family and friends makes me happy and that is good enough for me.To me my friends and family is very important in my life cause without them I would be nothing in life.I also thank god for the awesome family and friends that he gave me with them around I feel happy.

Before all this dating happen I was the most happiest teen,I was enjoying my life.The friends and family I had  was awesome.Then one day I felt so lonely and I wanted to date a guy like my friends,so I decided to find a guy for me and also to feel that feeling of being loved by someone.I found my first love and it felt so nice to have that feeling of being loved by someone.After 3 years of dating we broke up for a reason and that time was the hardest time for me.As time past I got over it and moved on.

Now I'm dating an new guy who is so sweet,trust god,give me advise,love me for who I am and most of all he love me the most.I do love him alot but things are getting hard for me and him,first problem is I'm leaving the country,my ex boyfriend is going to be in the same place where I'm going to be and my brother is hoping for me to get back with my ex boyfriend cause my brother thinks he is a good guy and he deserved another chance.I know I did not fight with my ex for anything and I broke up with him because of my friend,but I have moved on and I'm with someone else.

When you love someone, you’ve got to trust them. There’s no other way. You’ve got to give them the key to everything that’s yours. Otherwise, what’s the point?...for now I'm taking one step at the time to open up to him and trust him fully....I think its worth to give it a shot.

Now I got to choose weather to leave him or go to Canada for good and forget about everything here in malaysia and start over and my brother promise me that everything will be fine if I leave everything behind.
I always tell myself this...
“I know it seems hard sometimes but I got to remember one thing. Through every dark night, there’s a bright day after that. So no matter how hard it get, stick your chest out, keep your head up… and handle it

When you love someone, you’ve got to trust them. There’s no other way. You’ve got to give them the key to everything that’s yours. Otherwise, what’s the point?...for now I'm taking one step at the time to open up to him and trust him fully....I think its worth to give it a shot.

But there's a story behind everything. How a picture got on a wall. How a scar got on your face. Sometimes the stories are simple, and sometimes they are hard and heartbreaking. But behind all your stories is always your mother's story, because hers is where yours begins.



-Just the right place to find a schadenfreude

moments

Every person has number of moments where he or she may lose control and endanger the relationship he has. In a marriage or relationship of mutual admiration, it is important for the other partner to understand the nerve and show support. Sometimes, things turn a bit tricky and people run off. Here comes the significance of a person who loved the essence of you. Be who you are, if you pose something else to appease someone , sooner or later you will get confused and will be stranded in the middle. Won't get the person you admired and lose yourself .. Let people fall for the person you are : )

The kind of girl..

i'm the kinda girl who is the one who is always there for everyone else when they need it. the one who puts others before herself. i'm the kinda girl who would rather be in sweats, big tee's and no make up at school, but dresses up because its what people expect of her.i'm the kinda girl, who regrets little things from the past, like not joining a sports team.i'm the kinda girl who loves her sports, but also loves getting dressed all fancy and acting like a princess. i'm the kinda girl who everyone knows her name, but nobody takes the time to know her. the one everyone sees walking with her one best friend and they all just stare. I'm the kinda girl who can be hurt, but will take time to make someone else happy, even though she cant make herself.I'm the kinda girl who acts all tough, but is really not as tough as you think. the girl that jokes around, but sometimes likes to be serious. the kinda girl who acts like things dont bug her or hurt her, just so people dont think they are actually bothering her. the kinda girl who can take so much pain, and bottles it all up inside her.i'm the girl that is afraid of rejection and denial, but yet risks so much. i'm the kinda girl who just wishes some things would change. the one that wants something different and new. and is sick of bulls**t.

life..

Life isn't just about keeping score.
It's not about how many people call you
And it's not about who you've dated or haven't dated at all.
It isn't about who you've kissed,
What sport you play,
Or which guy or girl likes you.
It's not about your shoes or your hair
Or the color of your skin,
Or where you live or go to school.
In fact it's not about grades, money,
Clothes, or colleges that accept you or not.
Life isn't about if you have lots of friends or if you are alone,
And it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life isn't about that.
But life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about how you feel about yourself.
It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.
It's about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance
And building confidence.
It's about what you say and what you mean.
It's about seeing people for who they are and not for what they have.
Most of all it is choosing to use your life.

In a way that could have neverbeen achieved otherwise.
These choices are what life's about.

WISDOM OF THE SOUL

1. No one can ruin your day without YOUR permission.

2. Most people will be about as happy, as they decide to be.

3. Others can stop you temporarily, but only you can do it permanently.

4. Whatever you are willing to put up with, is exactly what you will have.

5. Success stops when you do.

6. When your ship comes in. ... make sure you are willing to unload it.

7. You will never "have it all together."

8. Life is a journey... not a destination. Enjoy the trip!

9. The biggest lie on the planet: "When I get what I want I will be happy."

10. The best way to escape your problem is to solve it.

11. I've learned that ultimately 'takers' lose and 'givers' win.

12. Life's precious moments don't have value, unless they are shared.

13. If you don't start, it's certain you won't arrive.

14. We often fear the thing we want the most.

15. Yesterday was the deadline for all complaints.

16. Look for opportunities. ..not guarantees.

17. Life is what's coming....not what was.

18. Success is getting up one more time.

19. Now is the most interesting time of all.

20. When things go wrong.....don' t go with them.

21. Sometimes the majority only means that all the fools are on the same side.

22. A person who asks a question might be a fool for five minutes, but a person who doesn't ask, is a fool forever.

23. A best friend is like a four leaf clover... hard to find, and lucky to have.

24. I don't have to attend every argument I'm invited to.

25. Our eyes are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look behind.

teenager...

Teenage Years
Big dreams
Stupid fights
Sleepy days
Endless nights
Broken hearts
Mascara tears
Cell phone bills
Report card fears
Clothes too tight
Shoes so high
Out past curfew
Another lie
Eyeshadow color
Midnight black
Lip gloss flavor
Cherry Attack
Belts with stars
Boys with cars
Just a taste of teenage years
When even your biggest problems
Are too small for tears !

for you Mr.Teddy..

I loved you yesterday
I love you today
I'll love you tomorow, in every way
I hope in my heart, u'll always stay

you make me happy
you make me smile
every moment with you, is so worth while

without you with me
i wouldnt survive
your the one thing that keeps me alive

dont break my heart
stay by my side
I miss u the most when we say goodbye

you are my last love
your my only today
the way your laugh makes me happy

when i think of you, my heart skips a beat

so stay with me now

forever and more..

He loves me just the way I am

and I love him just the way he is

He is my teddy bear 

He is my therapist and listen to my problems

He is my teacher and help me learn

If feels so nice to sleep after talking to him

cause I would dream the most beautiful dreams

every night...

I cant for the day where I see his 

face first thing in the morning and smile 

cause he is beside me...

-Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle, rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be...

(love you Mr.Teddy) <3 <3 <3

trust your self..

Do things you know you can’t do, or think you can’t do but hope in your deepest most secret hidden heart that you can. Be bad at things. Be embarrassed. Be vulnerable. Go out on a limb. Or two. Or twelve. The harder you fall, the farther you’ll rise. And the louder you fail, the clearer the distant bell of your future will ring. Failure is a gift. Welcome it. There are people who spend their lives wondering how they became the people they became, how certain chances passed them by and why they didn’t take the road less traveled. Those people are not you. You have the front-row seat to your own transformation. And in transforming yourself, you might just transform the world. Believe that, and embrace the new person you’re becoming. This is your moment. Now. Not ten minutes from now, not tomorrow, really now. Know that, truly in your bones, and wake up each morning remembering it. And then keep going.

Lessons in Life

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's okay to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's okay to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. 

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying. 

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today. 

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer. 

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special. 

22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you. 

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?" 

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business. 

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time. 

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch. 

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do. 

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young. 

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.

38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion. 

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back. 

41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now. 

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

45. The best is yet to come. 

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

48. If you don't ask, you don't get.

49. Yield.

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift. 

"A REAL FRIEND IS ONE WHO WALKS IN WHEN 

THE REST OF THE WORLD WALKS OUT

Dealing with Depression

Go out for a walk on a sunny day. No matter how s**tty you feel, it’s better if you get up, go outside and talk a walk. It’s good to smell the fresh air on a beautiful sunny weather.
Eat food. Like sweets, ice cream, etc. something that will make your taste buds explode.
Comfort and company. It’s good to be with someone that can be there to comfort you, such as your best friend, family, etc. It’s not good to always be by yourself crying or just being alone. You need someone by your side, comfort.
Watch comedy movies. Watch something that will just make you laugh your heart out. Whether by yourself, or with a friend. Having some laughter should brighten your mood too.
Spend money. Go shopping and buy clothes. Buy food, buy whatever that is affordable and value to you.
Fall asleep on the phone with someone. Do you cry to yourself to sleep every night? It’s good to call someone and have a decent conversation with them. Someone like your best friend, family, just anyone that can comfort or make you laugh.
Vent. Write out everything on how you feel on a piece of paper, and crumple it up or burn it. Tell someone how you feel, and they should give you a piece of advice or some type of comfort to make you feel better. You can even go on the computer and vent all your feelings out on your Tumblr, blog, or someone online. Don’t always keep your feelings to yourself. Tell the world how you feel.

My life

I'm where I am supposed to be gotta make the best out of life and be thankful for what you have not complaining about the things you want you'll never get anywhere with that attitude and you'll slowly lose all the people you care about one by one they will all slowly disappear from your life and you'll end up alone, the only way to keep that from happening is to make the best of what you have in life, show respect to others, be responsible for your actions and be the best person you can always be a leader not a follower it will just degrade yourself and make it look like you cant live your own life, it will look like you cant do your own thing which will just make you weaker and a person who cant lead their own life and make their own decisions, I used to be one but never again will I be one I am stronger for that, I will make my own decisions and not care if anyone judges me for them its the only way I can live my life. alright well peace out..

The greatest relationships....

The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and changed your every view. The ones where you found yourself to be a better person because of who you were when he was around. The ones that made you wake up with a smile on your face no matter how corny it was. The ones that made everything right when it was wrong. The ones that caused you physical pain to leave because leaving meant losing a part of yourself.

The greatest relationships are the ones you’ll always remember not because of their length, but because of who you were with. The ones where the memories make you want to laugh when you’re crying. The ones that make you believe that God exists, because no one else could have created someone so amazing. The ones that cause you to change for the better, even if you don’t realize it. The ones where you know you’re being honest with yourself, so much it hurts.

The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy.

The greatest relationships are the ones that changed your life. The ones that made you rethink your future because you knew it’d be better with him. The ones where you felt like your forever had finally appeared. The ones that made you question the ending. The ones that told you to push through the problems because eventually it would be better again. The ones where you broke your heart and his for his good, even when you couldn’t explain without breaking a rule.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you care more about his happiness then you do about your own. The ones where you do what you do for his future, even if it means wrecking your present. The ones where you tell yourself to walk in the opposite direction, because you know there are just some things you can’t do. The ones when you cry not because it’s over, but because you know you lost not only him, but your best friend too.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll thank him for being a part of your life, no matter how short. The ones where you’ll never forget him because he helped shape your view on love. The ones where you’ll always be there for him, whether or not he’ll accept that. The ones where he put up with your crap when he didn’t have to. The ones where your last tribute to him was doing something he never thought you’d do - and loving it.

The greatest relationships are the ones where you’ll always love him, even when he’s forgotten all about you. The ones where you’re changed forever because of him. The ones that you will always smile about because while they were flawed, they were still amazing. The ones where you fought what you knew was going to happen because you couldn’t quite come to terms with losing him. The ones that remind you love lost is better than never having loved at all.

The Secrets............ The Power....... .......

* The First Secret: The power of Love.

Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships. Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about ourselves and others. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help recognize him or her when you meet.

* The Second Secret: The power of Respect.

You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect ask yourself, "What do I respect about myself? " To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself, "What do I respect about them?"

* The Third Secret: The power of Giving.

If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself, freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. The secret formula of a happy, lifelong relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of you can take.

* The Fourth Secret: The power of Friendship.

To find true love you must first find a true friend. To love someone completely you must love them for who they are not what they look like. Friendship is the soil through which love's seeds grow. If you want to bring love into a relationship, you must first bring friendship.


* The Fifth Secret: The power of Touch.

Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

* The Sixth Secret: The power of Letting go.

If you love something, let it be free. Even in a loving relationship, people need their space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions.

* The Seventh Secret: The power of Communication
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To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know; that you love and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say, "I love you." Never let an opportunity pass to praise and acknowledge someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word ... it could be the last time you see them.


* The Fifth Secret: The power of Touch.

Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

* The Sixth Secret: The power of Letting go.

If you love something, let it be free. Even in a loving relationship, people need their space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions.

* The Seventh Secret: The power of Communication
. .
To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know; that you love and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say, "I love you." Never let an opportunity pass to praise and acknowledge someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word ... it could be the last time you see them.


* The Eighth Secret: The power of Commitment.
If you want to have love in abundance, you must be committed to it. Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong, loving one.

* The Ninth Secret: The power of Passion.

Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone. It comes from deep commitment, enthusiasm, interest and excitement. The essence of love and happiness are the same, all we need to do is to live each day with passion.

* The Tenth Secret: The power of Trust.
You cannot love someone completely unless you trust them completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Trust yourself, trust others and trust the world. It is the foundation for LOVE.

My love for you...=P

♥ I Love You enough to fight for you, to compromise for you, & to sacrifice myself for you if need be. Enough to miss you incredibly when we're apart, no matter what length of time it's for & regardless of the distance. Enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in our strength as a couple, & to never give up on us. Enough to spend the rest of my life with you, be there for you when you need or want me, & never, ever want to leave or live without you. I Love You this much! ♥

This is life...

Sometimes people come into your life & you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are & or who you want to become You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
and sometime things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, & unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming these obstacles that you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or heart
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by mean of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness & sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without this small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe & comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people that you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you will become Even the bad experiences are learned from. In fact, they are the most poignant ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to things.
Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment & take from those moments everything you could possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before & actually listen... Let yourself fall in love again, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right too.
Tell yourself that you are a great individual & believe in yourself. For if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish.....Create your own life & then go out & live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.
Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday.... Was it worth it?

there is nothing i can do about it...

This week was such a mess...I'm going crazy and I don't know what am I even doing,I'm basically I'm like a lost puppy who it trying to find the way back home.Sometimes I wish I could just go somewhere far and don't ever come home for ever.Everyone thinks my life is so perfect but guess what they are wrong about it.


There is one I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be.


The worst thing that sucks is that i can give good advise and convince my friends not to do something stupid and make them feel good about them self but I cant convince myself  or stand up myself,I feel like I'm too weak to do anything.I can tell you one thing that I'm the type of girl who hides everything from everyone and always put a smile on my face and be there for my family and friends cause if they are happy then I'm happy...the only thing that keeps me going is my friends and family.


I use to have dreams that my boyfriend is the perfect guy for me,unfortunately all that dreams has fade away just with a blink of an eye.I try really hard to keep my relationship going but it did not work it only made it worst and made me feel like reaping my heart out.. then I told myself why on earth should I do that just for one stupid guy who did not mean anything to me anymore in my life and I was sure that there will be a guy who out there for me and guess what I just found him and its still in the process,if he can put a smile everyday on my face and see the worst of me then I'm 100% sure that he deserved the best from me.


I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change; when everybody else does.

Maybe...

.........Maybe, she thought as she walked, Brian McBrian was onto something important. Maybe happiness didn't have to be about the big, sweeping circumstances, about having everything in your life in place. Maybe it was about stringing togther a bunch of small pleasures. Wearing slippers and watching the Miss Universe contest. Eating a brownie with vanilla ice cream. Getting to level seven in Dragon Master and knowing there were twenty levels to go.
..........Maybe happiness was just a matter of the little upticks-the traffic signal that said "Walk" the second you got there-and downticks-the itchy tag at the back of your collar-that happened to every person in the course of a day. Maybe everybody had the same alloted measure of happiness within each day.

all about life...

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back

Happy valentines day!!!

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in track pants, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, "thats her"....

  an euphonious is for life, not just xmas!    

first love...

First loves...that’s exactly what they are...those are the ones that introduced you to everything, made you love them, loved you back, and also broke your heart. But no matter how hurt you are, you’ll always love them. Always...they’ll stay with you forever. And not only will you not notice it, but deep down you will compare every other guy to him. And none of them will live up...because he was your first love. Then after months of letting go...when you finally think you are okay with letting him go, he’ll call...or you'll hear "your" song...or you’ll see his car at a place that was important to you...or see a movie...or something that reminds you of how much he meant you and how much you really loved him and realize you’re not completely over him and never will be.

(I am one of that girl still trying to get over her first love)